"mommy" glow...

...not for me. Dang it. I have had many requests from friends to take pictures of my growing belly (and believe me, it is growing every day), but I'm a little hesitant because what people might see is a giant strawberry. My whole life I've had eczema, and no, as my friend Mel once asked, it is not contagious, ha! However, it does have a habit of making my eyelids look swollen and dry and scaley. This doesn't happen all of the time, but it is often enough that I often go to work with no makeup to let it heal. Lately, it has been a different story. My entire face is constantly swollen, dry and pealing. It has gotten so bad that people have constantly been asking how I feel. When I respond, "fine," they always go, "oh," like really, are you sure? So I have learned to follow up with some response about my allergies driving me crazy, that usually seems to satisfy them.

This week, it finally got to me, I'd had enough and realized that this is not normal so I went to the doctor. She couldn't believe that I had waited so long to come in; she said it was terrible and that usually with cases this severe they use steriods, but that was out of the question because of the bug. She also told me that some people get lucky and babies make their skin beautiful, others, like me, get the raw end of the deal where the baby makes everything 10 times worse than it was. So now I have four different ointments on my face and hopefully it will start to look normal; maybe I will even get that "mommy" glow!

Whoa...slow down!

Lately, I can't help feeling like I am one step behind where I should be. When I first found out I was pregnant, I felt like, "8 more months...no problem!" Suddenly, I look at the calendar and 4 months have passed. Whoa, slow down, I'm not ready! Everyone is asking me about the nursery and showers and everything else and I am starting to feel a little overwhelmed. I feel like there is so much to get done before "the bug" is born, and I don't even know where to start! We did order a dresser to match a shelf we already have in the now guest room, soon to be nursery. So, I guess we will have a changing table in about a week. Now, we just have to figure out what color to paint the nursery; I will probably have to write an entirely new entry about this issue because Brady and I are definitely not on the same page!

This is probably going to sound silly, but it really hit me how much our lives are about to change when I started thinking about Christmas. Last year was our first Christmas as newlyweds, this year we will have a baby! Can you believe that! The next time I will see a number of my relatives, I won't just be pregnant, I will have a child. The next time my mom and I go shopping the day after Thanksgiving, we will be bringing a baby along! I just can't get over how much things are going to change.

I hope that Brady and I will be closer than ever and really stick together when we are both tired from all of the late nights. It is kind of scary to think that your relationship is going to change along with everything else. Brady isn't just going to be my husband, he's going to be the father of my child. I can't imagine loving him anymore than I do, but I know that the moment I see him holding the bug, I will. Life is just amazing!