Right now...

Time goes so, so fast.  Everyone tells you that it will, and it's not that you don't believe them, but until you feel it zooming by, you don't realize just how right they were.  When I first found out I was pregnant, I was shocked, happy, excited and scared.  I can still remember praying that the little person growing inside would be healthy and that I would be the best mother possible.  I worried about every decision I made and at the time, didn't realize that I wouldn't stop worrying...ever.   I wondered who the little person inside of me would become and what he/she would look like.  I never dreamed that Parker would be that person and that he would completely exceed every expectation I could ever dream.   Being a mother is the most incredible, frightening and fulfilling experience I have ever had and I look forward to every day that I get to spend with my little man.  

While I was pregnant, I was transitioning into a new job (with lots of extra work and traveling), finishing my masters and frantically trying to prepare for this unexpected blessing.  Because I had just started a new job, I had to put in hours within just a few days of Parker being born; finishing projects and going in for a couple of hours so I wasn't "that team member" who didn't pull my weight.  I was completely enamored with our baby boy, but I just never feel like I got to take time and truly enjoy every moment.  I read other about friends' babies milestones and wish that I would have taken the time to blog more and record every date and time of Parker's milestones.  Don't get me wrong, I know what age he completed them, but I just wish I would have took the time to really stop and enjoy them more.  

Because of this, being able to stay home with him is amazing and I am eternally grateful for this gift that I have been given.  Right now, I am the fixer of all things broken, the healer of all ouchies, the finder of everything lost and the comforter of every bad feeling.  Right now, his head fits perfectly under my chin when he sits on my lap to read a book.  Right now, he still looks for me in while he's playing with other kids to make sure I'm still there.  Right now, Brady and I are still the most important people in his life.  None of these things will be true forever.  Some of them might not remain true next week.  So, for now, I am going to enjoy every moment and soak in every line of "baby you're a fire go work" and  "all da single yadies" (Parker's version).

I love you little man!